happy monday funday !
May 11th 2026
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mornings are still being figured out
April 30th 2026
Last year that ill be in my 20's that is fucking wild if you really think about it. My mornings consist of waking up at 5:30am making a cup of espresso getting dressed for the work day and then coming on my computer to decided what the fuck im going to do. My mind always goes to these thoughts thats I need to be doing something more extreme and creative with coding and shit but im sure im not there yet it is cool being able to update this tho and give some context to how im feeling. 21 or so yeah ill be 29 and this will be an interesting one I hope I plan on building a new pc to go with my new desk setup becuase the current rig i got going for me is this laptop but I mean it just looks like poop all the way on my desk with all this sphgetti so the day i build the new pc it should be all good with aesthics.
time is moving (fast)
April 29th 2026
I need new music and I need to get high well actually I dont and my mind keeps telling me I do and its always when I fucking wake up and start getting ready for work. well im here at work now and usually I am always the first one in the office so this gives me time to chill out read emails and get caught back up with what ever needs attending. Im loving my job and being surrounded by co workers who share a passion for this is exciting gives time to bounce ideas off one of another so I can say this is a good gig here and I really hope this all works. So im turning 29 in a few weeks so I think its important for me to actually cement myself and start dedicating my self a little each month I really hope to stay with this company for a long time I mean thats my goal is to make this a career. It was not fun waking up every morning to a job I really didnt want to be at so this time I need to make this job my fucking bitch.
I am loving the new john maus album its hitting so well his last album screen memories was another great one and it was released in an interesting time in my life so that will always have a special place in my heart. Wish I had some concert buddies tho becuase the last concert I was at was in october 19th 2025 watching John up on stage give it his all and was just there alone lol kinda felt so lame but overall he had an amazing performance.
Connection reconeccting
April 24th 2026
congrats to you and congrats to me with no history to land on but just history of confused interactions.Your image curses my dream sometimes and wish I could leave you in the past but my brain has trouble with such a thing im sure if i continue you will leave so i will keep it at that. This morning is nice tho while I get ready for work so many ideas are running through my mind but most of them are bad. I have this mini PC and a part of me want to sell it for a bag of meth but i know if i do that ill end regretting it so probably not worth it at all.Another thing that haunts me is the whole meth thing man fuck its always lingering in my mind from being on it for like 11 to 10 years it fucking fucks your thinking process.I love my job too much for me to go back to meth I need to put my mind on other matters like making my new desk in my room more nicer looking with the overall layout. Ive got a good expensive portion down with a great deal on this desk that my wife found on facebook marketplace so shout out to my beautiful for wife for that.
Pushing myself to learn more !
April 16th 2026
Im fixing my posture and pulling my keyboard closer to me as I try to get back into VS CODE Im wanting to comit to this and try to balance it with my main job this is the thing I know I am capable of pulling this off. I guess the goal is to having something like this I guess a blog of some sorts but I guess more polished with more features and such wanting to get in the groove of making this more challenging for myself.I need to cement myself more in these little challenges give myself some more creative freedom if I am explaining that correctly idk ive been just surfing the web lately and came across the website "codepen" and was like inspired to create something myself.the coding projects I have seen have just been inspiring and also If I get more into the groove of things with this whole coding and updating my website to git I have a feeling it will just snowball into more opportunites. Its also my 1 month aniversary with bill luke dodge as the IT Specialist here and I can honestly say I love this job and from what I have heard and confirmed with my manager is that I am a great addition to the team with that being said its only time to go up from here and present my skills to the best of my abillity. any who thursday's are great and tomorrow is motha fucking pay day so thats cool the wife will be budgeting so hopefully we can figure something out with my whole new desk set up but again it can wait if it needs to. Last night while browsing at PC desk Ideas I ran across this set up and wow it is great, its a Ikea hack with I believe a Ikea Countertop as the desk and then buying a standing desk base to secure the countertop underneath man the thing is gorgeous looking but yeah not in the budget for the time being maybe one day but yeah we will see.
What is happening ?
April 13th 2026
How does one feel ????? Not sure and whats going on with the world im not too sure ? My mind keeps jumping back to past years and it getting quite old home life is getting to be rather annoying my mother is being a total lame o and making this situation far worse. Wife does not feel comfortable living with her and thats is honestly the last thing I need to hear becuase I can relate to that im sure she does not like that feeling and its making me go back to the drawing board. I beleive its better for my wife and I to eventually just save save and save as much funds as we can to establish a new sanctuary it seems better fit and something less to worry about espically when someone doesnt want to pay thier rent. There is still plenty of time for these things to happen I just believe it wont be until im in my mid 30's where ill be seeing a house thats completely mine and no one else's the economy is literally a joke and this whole american dream is a thought that should go in the trash. the goal is to stay at bill luke and I mean stay here for at least over 10 years. Im turning 30 next year and its honestly time for me to stay put I want to be able to live a comfortable life going foward I really hope my 30's get better.
Mystery Chain
April 10th 2026
I think its almost May well actually not even halfway through april getting ahead of myself here. Clocked into work 10 min early this morning so we have a facility we park at its called "Drive Time" a run down parking lot that you could tell it was used for a mechanics from all the car lifts. The drive time parking lot was not letting me enter this morning for some reason I inputed the code like 3 times than gave up and just drove my vehicle on the property instead gave me a closer walk time so I am not complaining.
What Am I Really Working On ?
April 2nd 2026
So many ideas and so much time wasted on ideas that never get executed and the smart thing to focus on is simply my job. I guess you can say im doing a good job and also me waking up at 5:30am is getting easier I guess.More importanty my job is the most important thing to pay attention too espically with all the new stuff that is coming up that I need to learn.I am alwauys thinking way ahead and never in the moment sometimes but yeah keep my focus on the present so I dont mess myself up.
Summer is comming
March 30th 2026
Dreams are weird as usual and not going to get into them becuase I have no idea what they are about and what they are even trying to tell me. I woke up a few minutes after 5 then the usual 5:30 but thats fine we have coffee so ill be chilling.Surprsing im adding a new entry here lately ive been so fucking like uninspired maybe becuase its like im started this new job (3rd week btw) and thats the reason maybe.. ? Overall were chilling and im sure some thoughts will come rushing in and will get some where but yeah like craving some new stuff like within my creative side tbh the best route for me is too just try and I think it will just come flowing out like in a natural sense and im sure it will align with my taste just right. It just came to me I can just honestly work on my portfolio and get that cleaned up some little side project I can accomplish at work.
my sunday plan. March 22nd 2026 9:24am
March 22nd 2026
Soooo i woke up to some weird ass dreams but anyway excited for today we some things we are going to be doing today maybe Aubreys cousin is having some company over at her apartment to go swimming which sounds fun. Its already summer in az with the wild ass weather we are having but yeah we might be heading over for some swim time shes lives in scottsdale so he place is actually really nice but yeah gonna just mellow in to the day make some breakfast which im super stoked for. Bacon,Eggs,Hashbrowns and my wifes famous french toast man i am stoked for that she deff knows how to make some french toast its sooo good. Also im thinking of hitting up the vans store becuase I want some new vans Im going to go with the authentic black style they fit real nice with my aesthtic and will look good with my work uniform lol. Also Aubrey has been craving some ribs so were going to be enjoying that for dinner with a new little side dish she is going to make which is honey cornbread cant wait for all that sounds so good.
Carl Jung and his influence. Feb 27th 2026 6:03am
6:03am 27th of Feburary
Fell asleep to a documentry called "The Way of the Dream"| Marie-Louise Von Franz| A Jungian Documentry on Dreams and the Inner World" so ive always been fascinated with these studies and how they can really explain more about myself. I remember last night having these dreams and one stuck out to me.. I mean it seemed liked I was a in a setting of a construction site then at the end of that journey at the construction site a Woman told me to never stop learning about computers. So I know my dreams are deffinely trtying to tell me something it was the whole back story of this documentry on wha dreams really mean or what they interpret. Probally have so many typos but who ever is reading gets the idea lol I woke up at like 5:45am from these Dreams it had me startled just a little woke up as if i didnt get a lot of sleep but I just think its from yesterdays work moving heavy engines and being in that sun which is crazy that its already around 85 F in arizona in feburary lol. Made me a cup of coffee so its not that bad right now thinking of making some qwik breakfast but just realized no bacon and thats like my favorite breakfast item so ehhh. I think im moving on to CachyOS from PopOS thats been the daily for more than a year now so I think its time to move on and hopefully this weekend I have a little more time to catch up on some computer stuff I mean I need too but also its hard to figure out certain things but cannot not let it discourage me from progressing I mean yeah lol I think once I get in a rytham ill be fine but yeah lets continue its honestly quite fun I mean I just love the shit I do on the fucking computer and just everything around it. Love my taste in certain things as well Its just bleeds into other aspects of my life and I know other people can sense it and as time goes on I would like to save some of the archived shit and maybe write some shit down but yeah super good shit lol. Also on thought ya boy barley survived school thats the thing I wish I payed more attention to like the simple things like reading a fucking book or being able to have those basic english 101 skills... its never too late tho and will continue to learn buuttt as of now im installing the Cachy ISO on a usb and then this weekend ill expirement its about 6:27am need to get ready for fucking work and leave my house at about 7:00am to get thier before 8am there is a lot of traffic so i need to account for that but anyways laterrrrrrrrrr.
big work in progress at just a lot!!! Feb 24th, 2026
starting this entry at 5:38am...
Man my dreams have been hella wild lately its like they continue to keep becoming vivid its all after I stoped being high all the time anywho today im working for my father in law they have me on a task of taking apart a customers engine in the customers garage, will be going later this morning to pick up the needed supplies to complete the task. buuuuut yeah so bassicly I called off work at my main job in a sense to work with my father in law I mean the dude is paying me like $350 just to complete this task so honestly not a bad gig if i do say so myself. The completed week at francos Core will be a total of $700 and with me missin one day of work will bring down that total of about $560 which is okay becuase with that ontop of that totals to $910. It could be worse but honestly I need to keep focused and not be in my head all the time I mean I do wish I made more money for Aubrey and I but she knows what I truly want for us so its all not that bad. Its becoming more chill I guess idk I just honestly hope the city gives me this job for the desktop support role I just feel it could really work out.
The current vibe.
*leaves work at 7:am to get thier before 8am: Feb 23rd, 2026
Posted on: Feb 23rd *6:16am
Woke up from multiple dreams and just glad they are over with I did not like any of those horrible weird dreams lol just glad im awake now and just ready to get this day started also just read to get this day over with! another week at francos core and lets just say im ready to make it a good one, better going into this then with no energy or thought. Just I really hope the city chooses me for this position I applied for Desktop support is something I can really sink my teeth in and just be comfortable with the matterial so again lets really hope I get chosen but anyways this blog system is pretty cool again.
Today's Brain Update: Feb 22, 2026
Posted on: February 22, 2026
Mexican candy brings back many memories but I think it brings me closer to 2009 like that was the year when it really blew up, well for me at least.The world seemed so much simpler back then I guess...I mean im always trying to put my mind there again and which I should stop and just maybe create better projections again at this point im rambling its not supposed to make sense but only to me. Lets fucking go its looking great so im just going to run with it : - ) So Im going to say that this weekend has been a very good one to say the least im not fucking hiding anything and not high so it feels okay I guess Its not worth getting high in theese moments. Currently working at the core yard and im thinking of hating it becuase im just not that good at it, everyone has thier knacks working with my father in law a few years back ya think I stay in the field but its just not working out. I know my calling stays in technology